preparing for final exam 1,2,3 june :(

hi all ..

it had been days i didn't post anything :( , because i was busy preparing for the exam .. now in the middle of my business preparing for BBA102 (principle of management), i am writing this post =p ... for these days i was totally preparing for this management exam .. and for the other exams such as accounting 1b and finance , i didn't prepare much .. management is the hardest one, and the rate of failed is high enough .. >.< and my first exam is management which is tomorrow .. >.<
*oh God i need more time, i am not ready yet .. too many to memorize, and i am not good at memorizing :(*
but i will do my best .. ^^ .. God please stay beside me all the time and help me =p ..

today is the last day of autumn, and tomorrow the cold goddess of winter is coming and i can't wait to come home at 11th of June (10 days left to go) .. come on !! quick come to mommy my dear 11th of June >.< .. actually i really want to come home on 6th of June, since from 4th of June i am already on holiday .. so i can stay longer in my hometown and might be i can meet super junior at changi airport since super junior will come to singapore on 6th June .. i will stop at singapore first before i head to indonesia .. so i might be have the chance to meet them in the airport ... but i can't change the date of my flight since i bought the promo ticket so i can't change the date .. :( *sad* ... aarrrghhhh by thinking this, i am getting mad at myself and regret .. :( i really want to come home on 6th !!!!! but there is nothing to do with this .. maybe this is God plan which is no one can change !! ^__^ so thinking to have fun on my first week holiday in sydney !! *i must* hahahahaha ...

i have a lot to write .. but i must rush to stick my nose and head on the book *sigh* >.< ... take care everybody ... ^____^

GBU <3
-JC-

Bonamana/ Miinah / Beauty SUju 4th album ^^

Annyeong ^^

Wah on 10th of May is a BIG day for ELFs, isn't it ?? since it was the day when single from 4th jib, BONAMANA, was released !!
in my opinion this song at the starting a bit same with sorry sorry song .. yeah maybe because the composer is the same person ^^ .. Bonamana or miinah or beauty is really cool song .. haha .. my first comment is "suju ROCK ya .. disco .. but.. why there is like indian or african haha ... but still cool man .. or because i am suju biased so everything realted to suju is cool !!" hahaha ...
and on 12th of May was the greatest day for ELFs .. for SUJU come back at 4th album MV !! everyone seems curious to see how our boys appearance in the new album ... wow they are so cool, sexy, hot and mature !! i really love them at the MV with their abs ..



there are some songs in the 4th album i like the most ... they are, shake it up, my all is in you and one fine spring day ... :) .. u must listen to their new song ... u won't regret it ^___^

Have a good day ^^
GBU <3
-JC-

Happy mother's day

hi

Happy mother's day too all mothers in the world especially my mom , my 2nd mom and my mama Maria ^^
Thanks for your care, love, protection,support, comfort, pray, tear, hug, warmth,scolding, kiss, and so on .. huaaa.. i miss u badly my mom erika !!! wanna come home quickly and hug u and kiss u .. *cry
i know, it's hard for u to send me overseas .. but u put aside your ego to see me growing up, for my future .. you are my super hero mom !! i will always be ur little obedient daughter mom, i won't change it !! ;) .. *dad don't get jealous to mom ya, when it is father's day i will write for u too ^^


In sydney mother's day is quite a big event to celebrate ... a lot advertisement and promo related to mother's day, every shopping center is decorated with mother's day theme .. ^^ .. it's really different from my hometown .. mother's day, which is on 22nd december in Indonesia, is not that special .. not much advertisement related to mom's day especially in my hometown .. it is small island .. :(

i never gave my mom gift or did something sweet for her in mom's day .. i really regret it now when i am far away from her ... so, for u readers who have your mom beside u, hug n kiss her now :) i wish i were in my hometown now to give her a hug , kiss and something special .. i only sent text message to her today .. while i typed the message, my eyes became watery.. >.< .from now on , i promise i will always make my mom proud and happy .. ^^ ... i will !!! wish me guys .. haha .. =p



but, i have another mom in sydney .. my mama maria ^^ ... she is really kindhearted woman .. she is my houseparents .. i prepared a gift for her from 2 weeks ago .. i bought a blazer for her ... today, i gave it for her .. she likes my present ^^ .. happy !! .. i am lucky have houseparents like them :) thanks God :))




that is the packaging of my present and the card ^^ ...


once again HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY TO ALL SUPER MOM IN THE WORLD !! WE ARE UR CHILDREN NO MATTER THE DISTANCE WILL ALWAYS PRAY AND LOVE U !!

God Bless <3
-JC-

the first day of May

heiii ...

the first day in May i change the decoration in my bed room .. i add a vase on my table ... wanna see ? taraaaaaaa ~~

They are beautiful and fresh, aren't they ? ^^
they came from the front garden of my home stay .. my lovely house mother gave it to me this morning :) .. the orange ones i don't know what the name .. but this is winter flower *i mean which can grow only in winter time, and the white one is rose!!

today i did some shopping at eastwood *the name of suburb where i live, i bought 4 blazers haha .. they are cheap, because on discount and every cents we spend at that shop is for charity ^^ .. i bought some parfum as well, because on 9th May there is Mother's day, so the shop give discount for every parfum ..

after i did shopping with Vanny, we had our lunch at charcoal korean bbq near eastwood station .. i love korean BBQ very much !! i took some photo to share ^^


and now, while i am writing this blog, i eat egg tart made by Vanny .. though it is a bit burnt but it is really nice !! lovely ..

i already ate 2 of them .. but i still hungry .. aizz .. better go to sleep now rather than eat haha .. because tomorrow must wake up early in the morning .. i should help my home parents make tomato sauce after that study together with Vanny .. no more time for a nap tomorrow :(
too much playing around these days .. forgot to study .. haizz .. final exam is getting near >.<

hope you guys get well and don't forget to study and pray !! ^^
God bless ya ,, see ya <3
-JC-

29 april entry

hi .. how are you going ? ^^

Because it is autumn now, these days are really cold .. brrrr ... though it is 20 C degree but i feel it is cold!! >.< may be because i came from tropic island so i am not use to cold weather .. :)

today i did my management class as usual (what a boring class lol :))
i bought 2 potuguese tarts .. one for me and one for my houseparents because last night when i told her i ate potuguese tart at school cafe, she said she loves it .. so i decided to buy her one :)
i fell in love with this tart ... so lovely the taste .. you must try guys ... ^^
but unfortunately it is quite expensive .. $3 each .. not a big piece ... but i love it .. soooo one day i will ask my friend (vanny) who loves to make a cake , to make me some .. haha .. =p

tomorrow i have to work from 4 - 7 p.m ... i was supposed to work until 8 p.m but i asked my manager could i finish it earlier ? he only allowed me to finish at 7 .. :( .. i don't like work at night time .. because night time is for relaxing.. :) but what can i do .. the power is not on me :( .. and this is autumn and it will be colder in the night time , and i must walk around 15 minutes from train station to my home .. poor me .. at this time i always wish if i had a boyfriend to be along with me, accompany me walking to my home and holding hand hahahahaha :) *what a poor girl :(

have i told u where i work ? i work at McDonald .. it is my part time job .. but not every week i work there .. i either don't know why .. haha .. the manager doesn't give a lot of hours for me :( but thats fine .. so i have a lot of time to have fun, relax and study ^^
this part time job is not necessary for me, because i only want to have a self satisfaction by earning money by my self .. haha .. though the money that i earned is not much .. :)so it is not a big deal if i only work around 10 hours a month while the others usually work 50 hours a month ..

you know, when u buy something for your beloved person with your own money, u will feel really great ... hahaha .. i am going to buy something with my salary for my little brother :)) .. and it is enough now to buy him the thing, and take it home when i come back to my beloved hometown, Belitung island.

my homeparents call me to have dinner now .. so i must end this blog today ^^

see yaaaaaa ...
hope you all have a great day ^^
Nitez , God bless <3
-JC-

The difference between SJ n JELLS!!

hi ..

since today i was not in a good mood :( .. i didn't know as well why my mood was down .. hufft .. all the day i stayed at home .. my friend asked me to go out but i refused because i didn't feel i wanna go out .. maybe because the weather was so cold today ..

i spent the whole day learnt Hanguk (korean language) by myself via online through this website http://www.learn-korean.net/learn-korean-classes-viewarticle-7.html .. i was surprised to find out hanguk has grammar as well .. and believe me guys the grammar is so difficult than english .. >.< .. and i learnt by myself without tutor :( .. poor me !!

and i watched youtube "a walk to remember super junior", 9 parts video made by ELF about super junior journeys from the first time time in training until they became famous.. these videos successfully made me cry .. oh gosh they become a super star like today we see through really a hard time .. not only 1 year they spent for training ... but 6 years !! 6 years is not a short time .. far a way from family, best friends, and struggled with their pain because of the training, they already suffered a lot but they didn't give up .. but now, their pain is paid back !! you win guys!! i am proud to be an ELF .. a fan that always smile with you, and cry with you .. and I still 13elieve your prom15e !! SJ + ELF = one ^^

the reason they didn't give up though they faced the harsh time because they have the other members supporting each other, their hyungs and dongsaeng who always with them share the pain and the happiness, always there with them with shoulder to lean on and warmth hug, and they have a super leader teuki oppa !!

i was jealous with super junior after i watched the video .. because since i continued my study in sydney, my JELLS who are my older sister and my younger sisters that i never have from my parents were not beside me again like usual, which means i dont have any shoulder to lean on when i wanna cry, i dont have any warmth hug again when i feel sad, i dont have anyone who know and understand me well when i am in bad temper.. i must survive alone here with the strange environment, new friends, new culture, everything is new for me!! super junior members don't have to survive alone, but i am a little girl must survive alone without JELLS, best friends, and family .. this is the point why i was so jealous.. >.<

but God is really kind, He gave me a lovable sister, Lenny, though she is far away and we only communicated via facebook message but it is enough for her to make me realized about something, the most important in this case, which is really simple matter but dumb me didn't know the point of my complaint above ..

She said, "each of Super Junior members has the same dream , but each JELLS members has different dream."

i dwell on this again n again .. and i got the point!! really thankful to God sent me angels without wings for me.. SHe is right .. we have our own different future goals, that made us separated, but distance is not a big problem for us to support each other .. the fact is they always be there for me when i want to cry, when i happy they also happy, when i have problem they cheer me up, however it is not a physical contact but i am happy and grateful ... silly me jealous with SJ because of the thing that actually i also have but in different way!!

now i can sleep with a bright smile in my face .. because i knew JELLS always be there for me despite of we are not together in the same place but our hearts are connected each other !!

really love JELLS ... my endless love is JELLS .. rock you girls !! hahaha ^^

JELLS is a friendship that will never end even God want us back to His side, this lovely friendship journal will still exist among our generation (i hope) ^^

copy from SJ motto : JELLS - any of us = 0 , JELLS + our hearts = 1 ^^

Have a good sleep my dear readers *dont forget say thanks to God ^^..

God Bless <3

-JC-

The Saddest love in the world is between you and your idol

Huhuy .. i am coming back again to tell you, did i meet with my prince charming at the library today ? hahhaa ^^

what do you think ? hahahaha ...

the answer is jerejerejerejengggg *weird lol .. i didn't meet him :(

Nothing special happen today .. everything seemed like usual .. even some of my plans were failed to do :(

something makes me sad tonight (well, not only tonight but also the nights before) :(

not because i didn't find my prince :) (it doesn't matter, because i know God already has one for me but not for this time ^^)

have u ever heard about a quote said "The saddest love in this world is the love between fans and idols" ?

I think i am the one who has this saddest love :( .. i am an ELF (EverLasting Friends) .. do you know ELF ? this is the name for super junior fans .. super junior (SJ) is boy band from south korea that has 13 members (they said SJ is the boy band that has the most members ^^)

i fell in love with Lee Dong Hae, the most childish member.. i love his smile that is like 3 yo child .. so sweet, innocent n so natural .. his kind heart, sweet manner, romantic side, childish act, i love every thing of him >.< .. oh my .. every time i look at his pict , i always like OMG i really want him beside me !! >.< ..

i have his real twitter because of him i started to check my twitter regularly every hour to check whether he twitted something or not.. he twitts a lot of simple but sweet for his fans (e.g : dont forget to eat, keep healthy) he replied few of his fans twitt mentioned him.. OMO how lucky they are !! i am jealous ... i already twitted so many mentioned him like a crazy one, but no one were replied by hae .. :( .. how pity i am!! >.<

it is impossible for me to meet him personally, i am in sydney he is in seoul .. even if he comes to sydney for show or travelling it is still unlikely happen (the chance is 1 : 100000000000)... huaaa .. by thinking this fact really make me hopeless .. :(

umm .. but after i thought about this again n again .. may be this is not what we named love.. i am only admiring him .. right ?? (please make me sure about this!! >.<)

i think after u read this u can tell that where my blog site name came from ^^

there are a lot if things i want to tell you .. but i will keep them for tomorrow post .. ^^

i hope you won't feel bored reading my silly story :)

Keep your body healthy readers :) (like hae oppa usually does) ^^

Good night

GBU <3

-JC-

Fall in love

Good afternoon ^^

are u in a happy mood ? hope u have a good day ^.~

i feel that i am FALL IN LOVE with 'Blogging' hahaha ...
before i thought "aizz i don't like blogging as i don't like writing and even not have the skill' lol
but suddenly since i started this blog.. i love to tell u whatever i want to share .. even every hour i feel like want to post something in this blog .. haha ..

may be some of you think "aigoo what is she talking about? is she insane or something?" hahahaha .. but my deepest hope is u guys won't think so ^^
but if u don't like my writing i donn't mind .. as before i told you, please feel free to give me critics .. ^^

i don't have any plan to go out today.. i will name today is "lazy time" ^^
but actually not the whole day lazy .. because i must do my finance homework today :( .. and i am going to learn hangul via online after lunch ^.~

btw talking about lunch, i don't know what to eat for lunch .. huaa >.<
somebody stole my lunch, last night i saw my housemother put a plate aside for my lunch , but today when i looked for it , it disappeared from the refrigerator .. i thought the boys (my homestay brother) might be took it .. since this is 'lazy day' i don't feel i want to cook ^^ .. so i will eat bread and ham or cook instant noodle "MI GORENG" lol ^^

Aigo i forgot to photocopy my accounting homework since i dont have the new book *i only have the old one, what the heck they changed the book suddenly!!
should i go to the library in the weekend? oohh come on, thinking about library in the weekend is so miserable :( .. but i must go !! if not, i will not get any mark .. ahh *sigh i will go today after lunch .. :( what a pitiful weekend going to library again (after the bloody management essay)..

i hope today will be interesting in the library (hei man what are u hoping from library? get a live music concert? lol )... might be i met with my prince charming there ^_______^ like in the movie .. ahahahahaha....

anyway, "whatever happen in your life you must be grateful, because this is the part of His awesome plan" ^^

alright i must offline now and cook noodle and prepare to go to library ..

see ya tonight .. ^^
i will tell u whether i find my prince or not today .. haha

wish me luck yooo ^.~

Have a good day all !!

God bless you <3
-JC-

JELLS

hi my beloved friends and readers

tonight since i don't feel i want to sleep lol =p i am going to fullfill my promise to tell u about my wonderful and adorable JELLS .. ^.~

again tonight while type this blog i am listening indonesia radio special playing k-pop songs, i will share u the link http://rokaonlineradio.listen2myradio.com/ .. might be u interesting in k-pop :) believe me k-pop is really nice songs so romantic lol ^^ also most of the singers are handsome *shy ^.~

hufft too much talking around lol .. sorry .. ^^

ok back to the topic, JELLS is stand for
J --> Jessica Phangestu (my self)
E --> Cecillia, her blog is http://cecilliainginberbagi.blogspot.com/
L --> Lili Ley Diana, her blog is http://liliho.blogspot.com/
L --> Lenny Riana
S --> Sherly Novianti



here we are Lenny, Sherly, Cecillia, Jessica and Lili (from your left to right).

they are not just best friends for me .. they are more than that .. they are one of treasures in my live that God gave to me..
we have been together for 8 years since 2002 since we were in elementary school .. actually at 2002 i didn't know sherly (well, i knew her since she is my neighbor but never talked to her^^) , at 2003 she became one of the important actresses in my drama when we met at the same junior high and in the same class and we shared our table and bench together :) ..

should i tell you all about their habbits and their nick name ? haha .. i think it needs 1 meter long or more .. lol :) maybe i can tell u latter when i talk about them again at another post :)

the picture above was taken when we celebrated JELLS 7th birthday (30 of march 2009).. it is really tearful to say this was the last time we celebrated JELLS birthday together .. this year, 30 of march 2010 we couldn't meet up together because we are separated by ocean now :( .. Sherly, Lenny, Cecillia are in Jakarta , Lili is in Singapore and I am in Sydney :( .. hikz ..


umm don't think JELLS is like an exclusive community that we don't want having friendship with others.. it is a BIG no no =p .. JELLS is only a symbol with a lot of meanings and stories (from the sad one to the happiest one , through hard and easy matter, up an down). We also have many best friends outside JELLS ^^ (i will introduce my beloved bestfriends from my hometown one day).

i am missing you jells .. it is already 10 months i never met with you (except webcam yah ^^).. really missing you my sista !! i want we gather and having a fun time together again like before .. fist when i arrived in sydney, i always thought 'life in sydney would really fun and great if they were in sydney as well' .. but then i realized we have our own way to achieve our dream, and this is of course God will !! no one can change this .. agree ? ^^
i believe He has a really awesome plan for us after this ^^
so i learnt to accept this fact and starting enjoy this country .. >.<

is this too long ? ^^ sorry if u felt bored .. ^.~

is there anything i missed out ? if there anything u want ask me please feel free to comment ..
i always look forward to your comment >.~

Have a good night.. GBU always <3
-JC-

Making cup cakes

Hi, how are you today ? i hope u always happy and be blessed ..

uggghh today was so hot outside.. when i walked to bus stop near the station i felt my leg was going to burnt !

today was so tiring .. Vanny (my friend) and i waited about 1 hour for the bus to vanny's house.. oh my .. i didn't know why the bus was so late today .. the heat and the late of the bus made my mood down :( ..

but right after we reached at vanny's house, the house is cool n my mood was back .. ^^
we made cup cakes .. it was easier than what i think .. the only failure was the icing .. the icing was too fluid so we couldn't make cute pattern on our cupcakes :(


Taraaaaa ^^ here the pict for u to have a look .. if u come to me i will give u some lol ^.~



are they cute ? hihi .. we wrote down our name on top of them ..



this is Vanny and I .. ^^ ..

really having a good time with her but also a tiring day .. :)
we are going to make another cupcakes with perfect icing next week (never give up) !! lol ;)

Have a good night readers .. ^^

GBU <3
-JC-

Intermezzo lol ;)

Hi readers ... (i don't know yet whether there is anyreader or not yet lol)

guess what i am doing right now ? while type this post , i am waiting for my rice to c0ok .. haha .. i am going to cook fried rice today.. it is kinda weird cooking the rice using pan instead of rice cooker because in my homestay they dont have rice cooker *they are italian ~.^.. *hope it will be nice because this is the only thing i can eat for my lunch .. ^^

i am listening http://rokaonlineradio.listen2myradio.com/ now .. this is kinda radio that plays k-pop song .. this morning a lot of nice and romantic love songs ... make my morning brighter than the sky today ... ^^ ...

Hope all of u have a nice day yaa ..

see yaaa in next post ^^

Love, Gbu always <3
-JC-

First

This is my first time blogging .. haha ..

hi .. annyeonghaseo .. hallo .. ni hao .. moshi moshi ... lol :) (too many greetings huh?)

why i want to make a blog ?
it is simple because i want to share my story ... n i think it is cool to have a blog (do you think so?) lol .. :) umm.. to be honest i don't like writing because i think i was born not for it haha .. so sorry if my writing is not as good as your expectation. I am an AMATEUR!! and my english also not as briliant as the other blogger .. but i will try to improve my english skill .. ^^

i will really happy if you leave a positive comment or critic after read my writing :)

umm.. brief intro about me :
i am an indonesian born chinese girl, so i have a pair of small eyes :)
i live far away from my family because of my study. i am studying accounting at sydney. i have Jesus, lovely parents, wonderful second parents, a little brother (but his body is bigger than mine >.<), JELLS (i will tell u later about this ~.^), best friends from my hometown, my nice homeparents (i also will write a little story about my homestay at sydney ^^), my new friends at Sydney (i want we can be best friends mate ^^), etc ...
Love is around me (though i don't have any boy friend yet *sigh >.<)

it's really late now .. it is 3.30 a.m .. but i want tell u a lot of stories .. >.<
but i should sleep now with a hungry stomach .. lol ..

Good Night, God Bless <3
-JC-